poppin' champagne like we won a championship game

Why yes, I am still alive. These past few 4 weeks have been incredibly ridiculous to say the least. I've had moments where I just want to quit teaching and there are days where I couldn't see myself doing anything else. I have learned to cherish the ground that weekends walk on and hate my body for not letting me sleep past 7:30 am most days. I am not the biggest fan of waking up while it's still dark, but this experience has been so humbling and a huge reality check which I was definitely in great need of. My classes and classmates at App where amazing. As close to perfect as they could have gotten; That perfection of comfort is really what I'm missing at this point. . It's so weird for me to get used to this journey. However, at the end of it all I think all this doubt and fear will make me a better teacher. I've learned that during the past few years I've been learning and getting better at being around others and making things work as a team. Ironically enough, a lot of what I'm doing makes me face these challenges alone. This isn't to say that my family and friends have not been there for me.I am so grateful to have so many friends that have been there for me through this entire experience. I don't know what I'd do without Cassie, Stacey, Katie, Corey, Kathryn and Brittany. Honestly, they have been my lifelines at certain times. My students are amazing and so is productivity. While I was having coffee with Kathryn this morning, we talked about how weird it is to go into the "real world"- whatever the fuck that means- and how uncertain it is. I saw Laura this weekend and that was really nice. It's nice to think that a lot of us are going through tough times right now but we still have each other even if it's at a distance. I will be going to Boone Tuesday afternoon to spend the night and then attend a seminar. I am so excited to do so, but I also know that it will make me so tired. I totally can't wait to see some people. Even though, I know I am going to miss my kids. I saw Cassidi at Chick-fil-a Saturday morning and it was so nice to say that I saw one of my kids outside of school. . I am actually about to head to church and I still have about a million things I could blog about but right now, I think this is all I can do. Promise to blog more frequently. PS: I have a new mission and motivation. Details to follow...
Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.