all you need is love.

I saw this earlier in the day and now that i'm reflecting on the day it seems very appropriate. I hardly complain about certain things out loud because I feel bad, or that I'll say something wrong, or just cause I'd rather hear about someone else's day and you know, forget my feelings...so to live a creative life...here you go:

quite the day.
i got up really early again, in reminiscing my teacher days, and went for a nice run. it was kinda funny to me how the roads had icy spots and the grass was frozen and i was still out there. running. i've really come around to enjoy running, it's good.
So most things in my life right now are obviously anything but normal. As a disclaimer to my previous post, I am happy, ut I also want you guys to know that I am missing teaching. Education in general. There isn't one day where I don't think of my kids, my future kids, my classes or stupid little teacher terms. I'm not just typing now to disclaim my previous post but I guess more so to put this on the table. It's no excuse, but those that know me well know that I'm not good with feelings. Yet, as two of you do know, it is something that I am currently working on. So in all honesty, I miss it. So much and I know I won't really say that out loud but I do. Today I saw my favorite student's parents ( i mean teachers don't have favorites...) and I realized how much I miss her, and them. I picked up Harry this evening and laid on the couch but I couldn't help but imagine myself sitting in my chair reading to my students. The way I would emphasis certain words, or the facial expressions I would make, the thinking out loud that I would do to get them thinking through a text talk, and merely the expressions that they would have on their own pretty, dirty, silly, annoying, exhausting, confused, soft, happy, innocent, excited little faces as I read each word. Yes I know there were days that they just really tired me out, but those moments didn't matter. Every single one of my students gave me something and I loved them all. They were definitely a handful at times, but I thanked them for those experiences that would make me a better teacher. Ha, I fell asleep on my couch at like 7:40, and didn't wake up til a bit ago. I miss sleeping cause I was so exhausted. I know if I was still there I'd still complain about being so tired and not getting enough sleep and having a tough job but deep down I adored it all. I'd rather have it and be tired than not have it at all. I know life isn't easy, but this sure as hell is hard to surpass. Ask questions if you have them, guys. Well, I think I just needed to let that out. I know I'll see them again soon, I just miss hearing Miss Gonzalez every 5 seconds.
Grudges are not fun. Forgiveness is not easy. But it's unhealthy to have grudges and a waste of time to not forgive. But it's nice to have some amazing friends to keep you in check.

But I'm still mad at Boone for not sending SOME of their snow down my way...


Miss you guys in Boone! I promise to make a trip down there asap.